Feeling the worst right now. :(

Recently, I’ve seen some ~inseparable couples separate. And I am just going down that same path.

I have no idea what I’m doing. I don’t even know how I feel anymore because I’m always so fucking apathetic to everyone and everything. I literally do not give a fuck about anything. I have the ability to completely shut everything off and pretend. I trick myself into thinking I can do this. That it’s not an issue. I don’t even know how long I’ve been kidding myself.

Everything was so safe. 

How do people drift apart so far? How did we not realise until it got this bad?

And the worst thing? I’m actually the cause of the problems. I am the one who fucked this up.